back but lost

i dont know what i feel right now. i want to disappear for awhile. find time for my self though i know i have too much time already. too much time having only me but still i dont feel any response from "me".

i have to let go a lot of things. a lot of burdens, a lot of emotions, i have to let go of my self to be able to find it. every moment that i imagine my self in a situation that i want to be, emotion that i want to feel the more i get lost.

i want an escape...
escape to this damn feeling...

i'll be back soon...
i have to let go and search...

im lost...